What started out as a friendly exchange of comments on Facebook turned out to be more than what I bargained for. I've known him for about 4 years now. He was a friend of a friend. But even then we had very few interactions. I was too busy being in love with my ex (his friend) then that I failed to notice people around me. For those of you who know me, you know that I'm not exactly mind over heart. More often that not, I get so in love that I forget to even think. I am after all, still a hopeless romantic to the core. But then a few weeks earlier I started to notice he'd comment on my pictures and statuses more often than usual and so I thought, hey here's a chance to be a little flirty. He was after all, cute.
I sent him a message telling him to SMS me. He told me that they don't usually SMS there. I joked. Asking which planet he came from where SMS is not a staple serving of everyday life. I guess it was only here in the Philippines (being the "text capital" of the world) that we SMS more than we sleep or eat --- combined. He told me he was in Japan. I forgot he had been there for the longest time although I really didn't know why. He later on told me that he's been there for 3 years because he's trying to get a resident visa. To date, I still don't get why people wanting to live elsewhere has to stay in that country for exactly 5 years. Why not 3 or better yet 2 years? Is 5 years the minimum test whether or not that country drove you insane and you'd want to go back? For me, it's shorter. Wayyyyy shorter! Anyway, a few more messages after, we crossed the flirting-to-actual-attraction line. I was beginning to understand how sweet and how intelligent this person was. Two qualities I give very high regard.Days passed and emails/FB messages just simply didn't do us justice anymore. We had to Skype. Video calling and all that jazz. I remember seeing him on video for the first time and having this "kilig"moment and instantly I knew I'm into a heap of trouble.
When I appeared on DZMM Teleradyo he was among a few of my friends who watched / listened in to my guesting. I was there to promote SOLACE. My open photoshoot for the benefit of my friend who's undergoing a battle with Breast Cancer. If you want to know more about this project and how you could help, please click on this link. He stayed up late just to listen in and the whole time sending mr words of encouragement and sweet reminders. "That's it!," I told myself. "I'm hooked!". Nevertheless, I knew he wad in Japan and it would take another 2 years for him to go back to the Philippines and so I figured I wanted to keep it light and casual. Or so I thought. A few more days later he popped the question. Not THE question but a question. He said he wanted to pursue whatever it is he was feeling for me and I... I was a bit hesitant. I've never been into a long distance relationship and this just scared the bejesus out of me. I really didn't know how or if it'll work. I was walking blindly on a very unknown path. I guess the reason why I succumb to it was because I've tried to be in more treacherous territory than LDCs. I figured if this person makes me really happy why should I even stop and think about it. Heck, I was happy and this person was the sole reason. And since I believe that everything happens for a reason, I believed this too might work. But I also knew it would take more than love for us to actually get through this. 2 years of waiting is a very long time especially if you're in love.
Last night, I fell asleep while on Skype with him and I woke up dazed when he told me I snore.He took a picture and wrote something that made my heart melt like butter.
I was beautiful even when I snore.
And to you here's my reply...
I will love you more everyday when we're apart and even more when we're finally together. I'm no Pablo Neruda but there's only one meaning on every "I love you" uttered by anyone in the planet no matter how near or far. And that holds true for me too.
His name is Chris and I love him...
Love letters and idealisms by Noel Abelardo
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